I was around 15 years old when I developed a liking to makeup, obviously, I started doing it because I had low self-esteem and I used makeup to aid with it. I started buying really cheap makeup, like 1-5 dollars an item. I remember I felt like a beauty guru, despite my makeup looking really bad, but it was fun to do it.
I never left my house without makeup, it didn’t matter the occasion, school, grocery shopping, going for tortillas, any occasion if I had to leave my house, I had to put something on. Whenever I didn’t have anything on I felt anxious and ugly, and I kinda hated the idea that products were needed to make me feel beautiful.
At the age of 19 or so, I felt the same about me, and I had to do my makeup every time before going to class, or going out to the mall. It was so tiring sometimes, but I felt I needed it because I felt ugly.
Then I turn 20, I started to think about it, and it was sad, that I needed products to make me feel beautiful, but at the same time, I was in love with makeup as a creative expression, I didn’t want to renounce to makeup, so slowly I started seeing makeup as an aid of my creative form of art to express myself, rather than a mask.
Since then, I started doing it because I loved it, I love creating colourful looks and adding a hella of colour into it. And I don’t see myself stoping sny time soon.